Vivo again
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Guess what! I'm back at vivo again..
Dinner with vir n jul.. Haven't seen them for so long!!! Totally missed them! Had some small talks and all..
N yeah.. touched on the topic that i prob would most like to avoid these days.. LOVE..
Maybe i am getting older.. Just wanna settle down with someone by your side and dropping you a msg from time to time asking a simple "what are you doing?" or "where are you now?".. Nevertheless, life is brutal as always.
I suddenly tot of this song "When you want it the most, there's no easy way out. When you're really to go, and your heart's left in doubt." however, i'm not too sure about.. "don't give up on your faith, love comes to those who believe it."
Anyways.. back to life being brutal.. Just feel that god is always playing a trick on me. When I want it the most, it will just never be there for me. And i missed it.. And i regret not holding on to it earlier. And i hate myself for it. Maybe i'll finally learn it. Maybe i'll just get used to it. And maybe maybe and more maybes.
Though the festive of love is wearing off me.. but i just feel that maybe and just maybe it has to do with something about me. The festive of love will only flame during this period and die off soon after and i get very dis-interested and passive about it. In a nutshell, I take things for granted. So festive of love, leave now and i'll be happier.. =)
